Written on Sunday:
Today is a day that makes me glad to be alive. The sun is shining, so bright, and it woke me up this morning and I just lay in bed being infused with its glorious light. My body and subsequent mental health is so dependent on sunlight, and lately I have just enjoyed waking up Happy.
I think it is a great gift to be 26 years old and happy. You may not think it is, but when so many people are miserable/depressed, and seem to just get more gloomy as they age, it is a sign of hope that my joy in life is increasing. I am certainly not happy, not free from care, every day and often not even for an entire day, but joy in the morning seems to me to be a great blessing in life.
It is wonderful to catch a glimpse of myself in the glass or mirror and notice that I really AM getting thinner (thank you power-walking and less soda). It is lovely to have a partner who is so consistently and constantly supportive, because I am so quick to be negative about myself and he is so quick to correct me.
I don't have a fantastic envy-inducing job, but in these times I think it is enough to have a job, and a blessing to have a job that I can at least enjoy on various levels. I may not have much in the way of large possessions, but I have a large light-filled flat and low rent, furniture provided by the college so that we didn't have to incur debt in buying some, and the benefits of walking 1-2 miles a day. I may not be able to afford fancy vacations, but with a little planning ahead I can afford a day trip to London or into the English countryside. I may not have a lot of money, but my debts are decreasing and I am once again able to buy groceries without having to worry about how to pay for them.
If I am to be realistic I can say that I will not retain this positive outlook forever, perhaps not even all day. Eventually I may get hungry and grumpy, or my over-sensitive feelings will get hurt and I'll sulk, but for the moment I revel in a feeling of perfect joy, and pray for the grace to experience a continuance of the feeling that all is right in my little world.